Nothing to write in this post... I just adore them... <3
Sunday, 10 August 2014
Craziness Lies Here..
Nothing to write in this post... I just adore them... <3
Monday, 4 August 2014
A Girl lost within herself..!!
This post is in remembrance of a girl very close to me.. I am in touch with her since birth.. All the happiness we have celebrated together. In all the moments of sorrow, we both have shed tears together. She is the only one I can spend time with when I actually want to be alone.
As a kid she was lively. Kind of very cheerful, confident personality. She used to live in the world of her dreams which was far better than reality. She had many hobbies. There was a time when she loved to paint, to sing to dance. But slowly all the things got disappeared. She has no interests now. She was lost... completely lost...!!
I was with her all the time and I regret that I failed to understand what went wrong with her that she became the way she is now. From her life I had learnt many things
I had learnt that one needs some motivation when he/she initiates something new.
I had learnt that no matter how bad one is at something a day will come when he/she will improve drastically in that field. Only thing needed is support and some respect from nearer ones.
I had learnt that surroundings in which you are spending most of your time will leave a great impact on your personality.
I had learnt that no matter how bad a kid performs something, I will never make fun of him/her as no one is born skillful. You have not attained mastery in something in just single day.
She was betrayed... Betrayed by someone.
From her betrayal, I had learnt that no matter what has been done with you, you will never be able to speak all the things because of some fear in your heart. You will be forced to be a part of happiness and sorrows of the one who betrayed you.
From her I had learnt that being innocent on this earth is not less than a curse.
The world has left a great remark on her life. The world has done what it is known for..
When she looks back in her life and when she looks today at herself, she fails to correlate the two souls.
I want the old her back. The old friend of mine. The one with charm on her face, confident in her eyes.
The lessons learnt are learnt by me as well as her. Now it is time to move on....
As a kid she was lively. Kind of very cheerful, confident personality. She used to live in the world of her dreams which was far better than reality. She had many hobbies. There was a time when she loved to paint, to sing to dance. But slowly all the things got disappeared. She has no interests now. She was lost... completely lost...!!
I was with her all the time and I regret that I failed to understand what went wrong with her that she became the way she is now. From her life I had learnt many things
I had learnt that one needs some motivation when he/she initiates something new.
I had learnt that no matter how bad one is at something a day will come when he/she will improve drastically in that field. Only thing needed is support and some respect from nearer ones.
I had learnt that surroundings in which you are spending most of your time will leave a great impact on your personality.
I had learnt that no matter how bad a kid performs something, I will never make fun of him/her as no one is born skillful. You have not attained mastery in something in just single day.
She was betrayed... Betrayed by someone.
From her betrayal, I had learnt that no matter what has been done with you, you will never be able to speak all the things because of some fear in your heart. You will be forced to be a part of happiness and sorrows of the one who betrayed you.
From her I had learnt that being innocent on this earth is not less than a curse.
The world has left a great remark on her life. The world has done what it is known for..
The world has changed her.
When she looks back in her life and when she looks today at herself, she fails to correlate the two souls.
I want the old her back. The old friend of mine. The one with charm on her face, confident in her eyes.
The lessons learnt are learnt by me as well as her. Now it is time to move on....
Tuesday, 10 June 2014
HaPpIeee BIrtHDay PaPa...
Happy Birthday My Hitler.. I Miss You A Lot... :(
Seven Years ago, same day you were lying in front of me..
At sharp 12 am I wanted to hug you tight but knew you will not hug me back..
I wanted to sing birthday song for you but knew you will not listen to me anymore.
I wanted to give you something on your birthday.. But knew you will not accept it..
I wanted you to cut cake and let me eat whole of it.
I wanted you to smile
I wanted you to talk
I wanted you to listen
I wanted you to to be happy
But... You were not even reacting...
Why??
Why didn't you get up that very day?
You chose to sleep and never to get up.
Your loved ones were crying for you dad.. and you kept silent.. You didn't utter a single word out of your mouth and let them cry on your own Birthday..!!
You knew that you are the only man on this earth I love and Trust.. Still you left me.
You were special for me.. You were my hero.. You didn't even let me tell you that how much I love you.
You didn't even gave me chance to say you good bye..
You just went away.. Without giving me a reason of the same.. I was just sitting behind you Dad.. Then why didn't you tell me?
We used to share every single thing then why not this?
You didn't even care how will I feel when you leave me.
You didn't care with whom will I fight and call Hitler.
You didn't even care with whom will I share my thoughts.
I miss the sound of your footsteps on the gate.
I miss the way you used to love me. I miss the way you took care of me. I miss the way you used to scold me when I do some thing wrong.
I Miss you yr..
I see your dreams.. They make me feel happy and sad at the same time. I wanted you to be with me now..
I wanted you to say to me " No worries dear.. Keep going.. I am with you.. and Proud of you."
I wanted you to tell me what to do when I am in dilemma.
I never wanted you to be part of my dreams. I wanted you to be with me always.. I never imagined a life without you. But you passed away...!!
I loved you dad.. And I love you.. And you know I will love you always..
I Miss You.. I feel bad that you left me alone.. But my love for you surpasses it..
Where ever you are stay happiee.. And keep on showering your blessings on me...
Happy Birthday Dad... <3
Seven Years ago, same day you were lying in front of me..
At sharp 12 am I wanted to hug you tight but knew you will not hug me back..
I wanted to sing birthday song for you but knew you will not listen to me anymore.
I wanted to give you something on your birthday.. But knew you will not accept it..
I wanted you to cut cake and let me eat whole of it.
I wanted you to smile
I wanted you to talk
I wanted you to listen
I wanted you to to be happy
But... You were not even reacting...
Why??
Why didn't you get up that very day?
You chose to sleep and never to get up.
You knew that you are the only man on this earth I love and Trust.. Still you left me.
You were special for me.. You were my hero.. You didn't even let me tell you that how much I love you.
You didn't even gave me chance to say you good bye..
You just went away.. Without giving me a reason of the same.. I was just sitting behind you Dad.. Then why didn't you tell me?
We used to share every single thing then why not this?
You didn't even care how will I feel when you leave me.
You didn't care with whom will I fight and call Hitler.
You didn't even care with whom will I share my thoughts.
I miss the sound of your footsteps on the gate.
I miss the way you used to love me. I miss the way you took care of me. I miss the way you used to scold me when I do some thing wrong.
I Miss you yr..
I see your dreams.. They make me feel happy and sad at the same time. I wanted you to be with me now..
I wanted you to say to me " No worries dear.. Keep going.. I am with you.. and Proud of you."
I wanted you to tell me what to do when I am in dilemma.
I never wanted you to be part of my dreams. I wanted you to be with me always.. I never imagined a life without you. But you passed away...!!
I loved you dad.. And I love you.. And you know I will love you always..
I Miss You.. I feel bad that you left me alone.. But my love for you surpasses it..
Where ever you are stay happiee.. And keep on showering your blessings on me...
Happy Birthday Dad... <3
Thursday, 15 May 2014
Honesty and Hard Work sometimes do not Pay Off..!!
The topic may be strange for many people. Honesty and Hard Work are the things that are praised by all but not always...
Today I realize that I was smart as a kid :D
My maa tells me that I used to score good when I was in primary in my class test even if I didn't prepare for them... (How Intelligent I was.. :D)
She is a mother and knows that m not born with super powers (I can't be Dexter of Dexter's Laboratory but I am didi for sure.. :D ask my brother for that) to know what is written in the book without opening them.
She one day asked me how do I score so good as I don't know about anything written in the book, I gave a very cute reply as per her and that was:
" Meko aata to ni.. Bs main thoda aage wale se dkh leti hun and thoda pichhe wale se dkh leti hun."
I was honest to her and hence might have got a slap from her because of this cheating work I did. But I was smarter with the teachers whose test I was taking. I never told her that I don't know anything.
So as far as my perceptions are concerned, Smart Work and Honesty can't run hand in hand.
Then onwards my mother started taking me seriously in terms of studies and make me learn every single thing written in those notebooks in my poor handwriting.. :P (Only my maa is able to understand it.. Thank God she can.. )
Because of the hard work she did on me slowly and steadily I was amongst who believe in hard work.
Now m grown up.. done with my schooling and college.. Now m marching towards the other world a lil farther from the one where grades were used to test your capabilities. Every single day when I go out for work I realize that in today's era your hard work will not be respected if you are not a smart worker.
It Will NOT Pay OFF.
It doesn't matter if you work till your back cracks as long as it's worth in the eyes of those for whom you work.
Feel, Sense and Learn from the people around you. What they do. How they do. You will learn to handle them
But keep Believing in hard work as smart work and hard work makes a great COMBO of Hybrid Work... (My brother told me this though.. Not tested by me.. :P)
And as far as being smarter is concern, stay happy for that.. The world will make you learn what it feels is correct and you will learn to act smart one day.
Still believing on:
"Your hard work might not pay off today or tomorrow, but it will eventually pay off"
still will do what I am habitual of and world will make me smarter.
Closing writing today, believing my hard work will may off.. not today.. not tomorrow.. But want it to pay off before I close my eyes, stop breathing, lose my sense of feeling... Before I DIE..
Today I realize that I was smart as a kid :D
My maa tells me that I used to score good when I was in primary in my class test even if I didn't prepare for them... (How Intelligent I was.. :D)
She is a mother and knows that m not born with super powers (I can't be Dexter of Dexter's Laboratory but I am didi for sure.. :D ask my brother for that) to know what is written in the book without opening them.
She one day asked me how do I score so good as I don't know about anything written in the book, I gave a very cute reply as per her and that was:
" Meko aata to ni.. Bs main thoda aage wale se dkh leti hun and thoda pichhe wale se dkh leti hun."
I was honest to her and hence might have got a slap from her because of this cheating work I did. But I was smarter with the teachers whose test I was taking. I never told her that I don't know anything.
So as far as my perceptions are concerned, Smart Work and Honesty can't run hand in hand.
Then onwards my mother started taking me seriously in terms of studies and make me learn every single thing written in those notebooks in my poor handwriting.. :P (Only my maa is able to understand it.. Thank God she can.. )
Because of the hard work she did on me slowly and steadily I was amongst who believe in hard work.
Now m grown up.. done with my schooling and college.. Now m marching towards the other world a lil farther from the one where grades were used to test your capabilities. Every single day when I go out for work I realize that in today's era your hard work will not be respected if you are not a smart worker.
It Will NOT Pay OFF.
It doesn't matter if you work till your back cracks as long as it's worth in the eyes of those for whom you work.
Feel, Sense and Learn from the people around you. What they do. How they do. You will learn to handle them
But keep Believing in hard work as smart work and hard work makes a great COMBO of Hybrid Work... (My brother told me this though.. Not tested by me.. :P)
And as far as being smarter is concern, stay happy for that.. The world will make you learn what it feels is correct and you will learn to act smart one day.
Still believing on:
"Your hard work might not pay off today or tomorrow, but it will eventually pay off"
still will do what I am habitual of and world will make me smarter.
Closing writing today, believing my hard work will may off.. not today.. not tomorrow.. But want it to pay off before I close my eyes, stop breathing, lose my sense of feeling... Before I DIE..
Tuesday, 8 October 2013
Life is all about making Mistakes...
There was a time when I used to think that everything done should be done keeping others in mind. To be very true, at that time the thought was respected by me and hence I was respected by MySelf...!!!
Later, things changed so do I.. :)
I was dragged to Hell by myself, and avoiding the signs all around me, I was so much lost in doing the things that today when I look back, I have nothing which can be done to bring back the lost ones.
Now, the point is Who Are The Lost Ones... :P :D
Well...!!!
Firstly, It is me... The Old Me.. As we know time changes everything, so how can we remain unchanged??
Some liked the old me and some likes the new one. No one actually cared what I liked.. Never mind, they are living in a democratic country and hence have independence to CommenT..!!
So Better be what you want to, irrespective of what others are expecting from you.. Because there is some one living inside you and it is your duty to make that someone happy. On the day of your judgement, it will be there standing in front of GOD stating your deeds when you were alive..!! So if you try to keep your seniors happy for the sake of increment or your teachers happy for the sake of marks, then you should make yourself happy for the sake of that JUDGEMENT day..
Secondly, Number of my Friends... From few to peak and then back to few... Hehe... And to be very True, I am not at all sad about me, Happy Instead.. Because the left ones are true ones.. The one very close to my Heart <3
Among them, one is very special for me.. Closest to my Heart.. We are more of sisters than friends.. And I seriously don't want anyone else when she is with me... (Sorry If you mind it.. :P )
The second thing made me realize, that it is not the Quantity but the Quality of Friends that matters... :D
Earlier I want to have 212 friends on myspace like Sheldon Cooper of Big Bang Theory.. But now 12 are enough for me... ;)
Sometimes, beautiful lessons are taught in the worst way possible and other times worst lessons are taught in the most beautiful way.
This is all about the life, making mistakes and learn something appropriate in response..
"If you are alive, you make mistakes and if you don't then you haven't learnt anything"
Later, things changed so do I.. :)
I was dragged to Hell by myself, and avoiding the signs all around me, I was so much lost in doing the things that today when I look back, I have nothing which can be done to bring back the lost ones.
Now, the point is Who Are The Lost Ones... :P :D
Well...!!!
Firstly, It is me... The Old Me.. As we know time changes everything, so how can we remain unchanged??
Some liked the old me and some likes the new one. No one actually cared what I liked.. Never mind, they are living in a democratic country and hence have independence to CommenT..!!
So Better be what you want to, irrespective of what others are expecting from you.. Because there is some one living inside you and it is your duty to make that someone happy. On the day of your judgement, it will be there standing in front of GOD stating your deeds when you were alive..!! So if you try to keep your seniors happy for the sake of increment or your teachers happy for the sake of marks, then you should make yourself happy for the sake of that JUDGEMENT day..
Secondly, Number of my Friends... From few to peak and then back to few... Hehe... And to be very True, I am not at all sad about me, Happy Instead.. Because the left ones are true ones.. The one very close to my Heart <3
Among them, one is very special for me.. Closest to my Heart.. We are more of sisters than friends.. And I seriously don't want anyone else when she is with me... (Sorry If you mind it.. :P )
The second thing made me realize, that it is not the Quantity but the Quality of Friends that matters... :D
Earlier I want to have 212 friends on myspace like Sheldon Cooper of Big Bang Theory.. But now 12 are enough for me... ;)
Sometimes, beautiful lessons are taught in the worst way possible and other times worst lessons are taught in the most beautiful way.
This is all about the life, making mistakes and learn something appropriate in response..
"If you are alive, you make mistakes and if you don't then you haven't learnt anything"
Tuesday, 5 February 2013
Never Ending Search
It is darkness all around...
It is light I am searching for...
The sun, the moon are all big things...
It is a glow worm I am searching for...
Life is teaching me all the lessons...
It is some interesting ones that I am waiting for..
Seems I am alone in a huge crowd...
It is my own shadow I am searching for...
It is not Happiness, joy and fun
But Peace of Mind I am living for..
Rust in mind, I have it all...
It is some good one I am seeking for..
Something is killing me from inside..
It is life that I am wandering for..
Love, care, trust.. I had it all once....
It is Hate, Distrust-fullness I am holding on..
Oh Lord! Where are you? If u exist..
Why you want yourself to be one..
That I am looking for??
It is light I am searching for...
The sun, the moon are all big things...
It is a glow worm I am searching for...
Life is teaching me all the lessons...
It is some interesting ones that I am waiting for..
Seems I am alone in a huge crowd...
It is my own shadow I am searching for...
It is not Happiness, joy and fun
But Peace of Mind I am living for..
Rust in mind, I have it all...
It is some good one I am seeking for..
Something is killing me from inside..
It is life that I am wandering for..
Love, care, trust.. I had it all once....
It is Hate, Distrust-fullness I am holding on..
Oh Lord! Where are you? If u exist..
Why you want yourself to be one..
That I am looking for??
Saturday, 8 September 2012
Discovering New Things
God has gifted, we the human being with a very special thing... MIND. And it keeps on working 24*7. Many of our scientist used some part of their huge mind and invented something :\
Gravitational force... I think that is the only reason I don't like apples because it made me to study a lot of concepts not only about earth but also about other celestial body revolving around earth....
I wish Newton had just picked up that apple and ate it rather than thinking, why it fall on Ground!!! Huh :\
Well, Now there is no use of discussing it.. we have to understand their mind, and force our small mind to compete their huge mind and understand what huge mind of theirs thought at that point of time.....
Actually, a human brain keeps on working every time, so it keeps on thinking, the only work it has!!
some of the great working mind invent something and makes future generation to cram it.
some of the mind keep thinking about other souls.. and.....
some minds discover something new about their own self everyday.
I wish my mind to fall in the third mentioned category..
no doubt 1st one will provide me name and fame... but my mind is not toooooo huge to think differently about the things like falling apples.. I am among those who will just grab the opportunity and eat it... :)
2nd category is not of my kind... actually i dont want to use my mind unnecessarily.. I do think about my family, and the one whom I want to be a part of it.. but they are a part of me and I am incomplete without them... so knowing them is equivalent to know myself... :D
from the very first day, I had a control over my mind, I had a desire to know myself.. and I am finding one life very short to have a good knowledge about myself. I don't know how many days of my life are left, will I be able to know me in those many days??
In the past days of my life, I was searching for a person who can understand me well.. But now I realize that how can I demand this from life? If I can't understand myself, how can I expect this from other? I don't know why I react differently at the same situation happening two times.. what my reaction will be when the same time will come again.... :(
So now I am trying to discover new things about myself...
will do it for sure...
and hopefully, very soon I will write something which will be describing me, my soul... rather than something else about me....
till then stay tuned to navneetdiary.blogspot.in.... :)
Gravitational force... I think that is the only reason I don't like apples because it made me to study a lot of concepts not only about earth but also about other celestial body revolving around earth....
I wish Newton had just picked up that apple and ate it rather than thinking, why it fall on Ground!!! Huh :\
Well, Now there is no use of discussing it.. we have to understand their mind, and force our small mind to compete their huge mind and understand what huge mind of theirs thought at that point of time.....
Actually, a human brain keeps on working every time, so it keeps on thinking, the only work it has!!
some of the great working mind invent something and makes future generation to cram it.
some of the mind keep thinking about other souls.. and.....
some minds discover something new about their own self everyday.
I wish my mind to fall in the third mentioned category..
no doubt 1st one will provide me name and fame... but my mind is not toooooo huge to think differently about the things like falling apples.. I am among those who will just grab the opportunity and eat it... :)
2nd category is not of my kind... actually i dont want to use my mind unnecessarily.. I do think about my family, and the one whom I want to be a part of it.. but they are a part of me and I am incomplete without them... so knowing them is equivalent to know myself... :D
from the very first day, I had a control over my mind, I had a desire to know myself.. and I am finding one life very short to have a good knowledge about myself. I don't know how many days of my life are left, will I be able to know me in those many days??
In the past days of my life, I was searching for a person who can understand me well.. But now I realize that how can I demand this from life? If I can't understand myself, how can I expect this from other? I don't know why I react differently at the same situation happening two times.. what my reaction will be when the same time will come again.... :(
So now I am trying to discover new things about myself...
will do it for sure...
and hopefully, very soon I will write something which will be describing me, my soul... rather than something else about me....
till then stay tuned to navneetdiary.blogspot.in.... :)
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