Honesty and Hard Work sometimes do not Pay Off..!!

The topic may be strange for many people. Honesty and Hard Work are the things that are praised by all but not always...

Today I realize that I was smart as a kid :D

My maa tells me that I used to score good when I was in primary in my class test even if I didn't prepare for them... (How Intelligent I was.. :D)
She is a mother and knows that m not born with super powers (I can't be Dexter of Dexter's Laboratory but I am didi for sure.. :D ask my brother for that) to know what is written in the book without opening them.
She one day asked me how do I score so good as I don't know about anything written in the book, I gave a very cute reply as per her and that was:

" Meko aata to ni.. Bs main thoda aage wale se dkh leti hun and thoda pichhe wale se dkh leti hun."

I was honest to her and hence might have got a slap from her because of this cheating work I did. But I was smarter with the teachers whose test I was taking. I never told her that I don't know anything.

So as far as my perceptions are concerned, Smart Work and Honesty can't run hand in hand.

Then onwards my mother started taking me seriously in terms of studies and make me learn every single thing written in those notebooks in my poor handwriting.. :P (Only my maa is able to understand it.. Thank God she can.. )

Because of the hard work she did on me slowly and steadily I was amongst who believe in hard work.

Now m grown up.. done with my schooling and college..  Now m marching towards the other world a lil farther from the one where grades were used to test your capabilities. Every single day when I go out for work I realize that in today's era your hard work will not be respected if you are not a smart worker.

                                          It Will NOT Pay OFF.


It doesn't matter if you work till your back cracks as long as it's worth in the eyes of those for whom you work.

Feel, Sense and Learn from the people around you. What they do. How they do. You will learn to handle them
But keep Believing  in hard work as smart work and hard work makes a great COMBO of Hybrid Work... (My brother told me this though.. Not tested by me.. :P)

And as far as being smarter is concern, stay happy for that.. The world will make you learn what it feels is correct and you will learn to act smart one day.
Still believing on:

"Your hard work might not pay off today or tomorrow, but it will eventually pay off"

still will do what I am habitual of and world will make me smarter.

Closing writing today, believing my hard work will may off.. not today.. not tomorrow.. But want it to pay off before I close my eyes, stop breathing, lose my sense of feeling... Before I DIE..

Life is all about making Mistakes...

There was a time when I used to think that everything done should be done keeping others in mind. To be very true, at that time the thought was respected by me and hence I was respected by MySelf...!!! 
Later, things changed so do I.. :)
I was dragged to Hell by myself, and avoiding the signs all around me, I was so much lost in doing the things that today when I  look back, I have nothing which can be done to bring back the lost ones. 
Now, the point is Who Are The Lost Ones... :P :D
Well...!!!
Firstly, It is me... The Old Me.. As we know time changes everything, so how can we remain unchanged??
Some liked the old me and some likes the new one. No one actually cared what I liked.. Never mind, they are living in a democratic country and hence have independence to CommenT..!! 
So Better be what you want to, irrespective of what others are expecting from you.. Because there is some one living inside you and it is your duty to make that someone happy. On the day of your judgement, it will be there standing in front of GOD stating your deeds when you were alive..!! So if you try to keep your seniors happy for the sake of increment or your teachers happy for the sake of marks, then you should make yourself happy for the sake of that JUDGEMENT day..
Secondly, Number of my Friends... From few to peak and then back to few...  Hehe... And to be very True, I am not at all sad about me, Happy Instead.. Because the left ones are true ones.. The one very close to my Heart <3 
Among them, one is very special for me.. Closest to my Heart.. We are more of sisters than friends.. And I seriously don't want anyone else when she is with me... (Sorry If you mind it.. :P )
The second thing made me realize, that it is not the Quantity but the Quality of Friends that matters... :D

Earlier I want to have 212 friends on myspace like Sheldon Cooper of Big Bang Theory.. But now 12 are enough for me... ;)

Sometimes, beautiful lessons are taught in the worst way possible and other times worst lessons are taught in the most beautiful way.

This is all about the life, making mistakes and learn something appropriate in response.. 

"If you are alive, you make mistakes and if you don't then you haven't learnt anything"

Never Ending Search

It is darkness all around...
It is light I am searching for...
The sun, the moon are all big things...
It is a glow worm I am searching for...
Life is teaching me all the lessons...
It is some interesting ones that I am waiting for..
Seems I am alone in a huge crowd...
It is my own shadow I am searching for...
It is not Happiness, joy and fun
But Peace of Mind I am living for..
Rust in mind, I have it all...
It is some good one I am seeking for..
Something is killing me from inside..
It is life that I am wandering for..
Love, care, trust.. I had it all once....
It is Hate, Distrust-fullness I am holding on..
Oh Lord! Where are you? If u exist..
Why you want yourself to be one..
That I am looking for??

Discovering New Things

God has gifted, we the human being with a very special thing... MIND. And it keeps on working 24*7. Many of our scientist used some part of their huge mind and invented something :\
Gravitational force... I think that is the only reason I don't like apples because it made me to study a lot of concepts not only about earth but also about other celestial body revolving around earth....
I wish Newton had just picked up that apple and ate it rather than thinking, why it fall on Ground!!! Huh :\
Well, Now there is no use of discussing it.. we have to understand their mind, and force our small mind to compete their huge mind and understand what huge mind of theirs thought at that point of time.....
Actually, a human brain keeps on working every time, so it keeps on thinking, the only work it has!!
some of the great working mind invent something and makes future generation to cram it.
some of the mind keep thinking about other souls.. and.....
some minds discover something new about their own self everyday.
I wish my mind to fall in the third mentioned category..
no doubt 1st one will provide me name and fame... but my mind is not toooooo huge to think differently about the things like falling apples.. I am among those who will just grab the opportunity and eat it... :)
2nd category is not of my kind... actually i dont want to use my mind unnecessarily.. I do think about my family, and the one whom I want to be a part of it.. but they are a part of me and I am incomplete without them... so knowing them is equivalent to know myself... :D
from the very first day, I had a control over my mind, I had a desire to know myself.. and I am finding one life very short to have a good knowledge about myself. I don't know how many days of my life are left, will I be able to know me in those many days??
In the past days of my life, I was searching for a person who can understand me well.. But now I realize that how can I demand this from life? If I can't understand myself, how can I expect this from other? I don't know why I react differently at the same situation happening two times.. what my reaction will be when the same time will come again.... :(
So now I am trying to discover new things about myself...
will do it for sure...
and hopefully, very soon I will write something which will be describing me, my soul... rather than something else about me....
till then stay tuned to navneetdiary.blogspot.in.... :)

Dreams Of Middle Class Family..

Dreams, Desires, Wish..... These few things are always carried by a normal human being....  Some of them, those how are born with a silver spoon, have licence to see big dreams, Having big desires, and keep on wishing something new every now and then... And the people born with a steel spoon.. undoubtedly can dream and wish for something but the wish of theirs keeps on shrinking when they come out of their fantasy world..

When we step out of our home, we see, meet many great souls.. running to accomplish their dreams on different path, each having their own style... Everyone having their own problems, each of them handling them in their own way.. And the best thing is that, each one of them considers himself dealing with the things in the best way possible...
hmmm... coming back to me and my sweet family... :) We dream a lot.. Don't know whether it is good or not.. don't know whether we'll be able to full fill those dreams or not.. we dream and act accordingly.. I know that the things we dream for are too far from our reach now.. But according to me, it is necessary for us to have desires, that keeps us moving..
I hope that I may always desire more than I can accomplish.
 A person without desire can not do anything with much interest... We don't desire for everything but of course we should desire for something...
As said by some one “You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you might find, you get what you need.”
Desire may be of anything,of being famous,owning a house, a car,having  a person with one you want to spent whole of your life, a profession, Desire to go foreign.. Having desires have no limitations.. But the main thing to be kept in mind is don't let yourself down if you fail to full fill your desires.. Don't stop dreaming, don't stop hoping..
Just have a look at your past, and see just because of that one desire how many dreams of your are fulfilled.. Try for the old desire one again or have a new desire to accomplish.. But don't lose faith in yourself...
Desire makes life happen. Makes it matter. Makes everything worth it. Desire is life.
You can't help out with where you are born.. But yes it is in your hands that with what spoon you want your children to born with...
You know the answer, so, Start working for it. And if you don't know the answer, then wait and keep waiting, your children will themselves give you the answer..

I Miss You!!

Sitting Lonely in the Lonely night..

Wishing u to be on my side..

Want to hold you tight..

And want you to sit forever by my side..

I want to cry so loud in front of you..

But m afraid that I will make you cry too..

You are far far away from me..

There are no chance of approaching you by me..

O lord! Where have you taken my soul?

I am not able to live without him anymore..

Lives and Deaths are there in your hand..

But oh Lord! Can u send my soul again on the land?

FriendShip...

A word with very deep meaning..(our narrow mind can't understand that)

A word which means a lot to some and nothing to most of us..(the latter ones stay happiee)

A word which according to me used to have no limitation..(But now thinking had changed with time.. This is the only relation with lots of limitations)

A word in which there is no place of sorry and thanks...( But I feel no relationship can last for long without these two words)
It is something with which some people can pass all their life..(But I need air,water and food most :P)


It is something which force you to make promises and later on it is the only one which force you to break it..(PROMISE...hehe.. for me pakka promise is some what more trustworthy. :P)
Friendship.. hehe.. A word around which the whole world revolves....
Some come to know about it a lil faster than others.. and hats off to them... (their IQ level is commendable ;))
The most ajeeb thing about this friendship is that it don't even allow a person to be alone... (Poor WE)


In short... Friendship is like a ocean, doesn't matter you know how to swim or not, If you are off the ship once.. you will drown....